Hello my friends. Today I have an announcement to make. Recently, in the active corners of my mind, I have reflected deeply on my soul and the life I have lived. All my life I have struggled with 3D, so called “real” women, hoping one day they could satisfy me. I hoped they could understand me, they’d have a depth to their spirit, not just an external prettiness but a true inner beauty in a vibrant inner world. But time a time again, I have run face first into harsh disappointment. All of my romantic endeavors have ended in pitiful failure, laughably blowing up in my naivety of my face. Clearly a delusional romanticist, in my rêveur I have sought something that cannot be found in another human being.
Letting these wounds fester, in my despair I have found myself deep at the bottom of the cold, murky well of nihilism. A bitter cynic, filled with hatred and contempt for the world. Ashamed of my mistakes, my faults, and most importantly, who I was. But recent experiences have helped me break these toxic thoughts. A new chapter has begun in my life. I’ve found an inner meaning and an inner identity that can help me understand my way of living and loving. In my pursuit of a soulmate, I followed the path that my family and society have set out for me. I have looked for a kindred spirit in “real” woman, and in satisfying that primal hunger found in all sensitive young men they have failed me. 19 long years lost, I’ve finally found the way.
After playing “Ayanami Raising Project” for the DS, I’ve realized that my strongest and most passionate feelings of attraction are for 2D anime girls. I am officially coming out as animesexual. This is not just some sexual perversion, where I only like them for distasteful sex “jokes” or annoying fan service. No, these are genuine romantic feelings. When I see an anime girl, rich in soul with a deep appreciation for the beauties of the world God has given us, filled with a strong independent spirit, I can’t help but feel a passion ignite I’ve never felt. For years I have flung myself into meaningless limerant flings, but now I realize that my true feelings of love have lied with anime girls all along.
The scene that truly moved me took place late in the game. My character, tired from a sleepless fit, came into Rei’s apartment. Her face was blank, skin pale, and her person dressed in the innocent uniform of junior high. But staring into her beautiful red eyes, the truly observational could see the true passion that stood proudly behind them. Under her cold exterior, a warm, powerful presence could be found. A will to life. A true drive. A strong driving force that animated her a way no 3D whore could ever live.
Real women have not, and never will satisfy me. The void in my heart is shaped in such a way that only the unique personality of a fictional girl can ever hope to cover the gaping wound.
I have now fully and proudly accepted my identity as an animesexual, and will no longer have any fantasies about 3D pigs. I hope that all of my mutuals will too accept my identity, and will treat me and other animesexuals with the respect they deserve.